A change in the horizon
I’ve lost my appetite… the eggs feel like I’m eating cardboard and I can barely choke it down. The dull taste sickens me and I feel like gagging. I’m upset. I hate eating when I’m upset. I can’t. Food disgusts me and I wish I could take a pill to fulfill vitamin/energy requirements that my body needs. I feel sick and the eggs feel like they are still lodged in my throat.
Money. I’ve just had a huge argument with Ryan over it. Money is the one thing we argue about constantly. I hate his job. I’m not sure if Ryan has twisted things to make things seem not as bad as they really are or if he’s blatantly lying to me again.
3 hours later. We finally talk it over and have a heart to heart. He’s going to look for a new job. Yea! I’m glad. There lots out there that will enable him to make more and he’ll be able to spend more time at home. I’m excited and am looking forward to the change. I don’t even care if we move. In fact I’d like to move. I’m never one for settling in one spot for too long of a time. I just hope he hurries it up and finds one.
I really should start doing some free lance work. Fear of failure. Kills me every time. I get told I’m good at writing, but I just think they are all idiots so what would they know. Although my big bro told me I was good, I just needed to work on it a bit. I respect his opinion since he’s the smart one and all. Time. I need to make time. Do it. I just need to do it. Even if I start to work for the small local paper cuz their photographer sucks big time. There’s no time like right now…