The journey between here and there

I can feel it building inside. It’s a huge stress ball that is growing bigger and bigger. It’s bubbling to the surface and will soon explode. I take on waaaay too much. I need to learn to say no. I hardly have time for anything. I’m running around, here, there and everywhere. I go to bed exhausted at 11pm then wake up at 3am cuz Luke is nursing only to not be able to go back to sleep, cuz I keep thinking of all the millions of things I have to do in the morning. It’s so frustrating. Sometimes I wake up and just stay awake until 11pm again. Other times I just stay in bed until exhaustion takes over again, usually 2 hours later. ARG! Everyday I fly around frantically trying to get everything on my list done… I only accomplish less than half, cuz my things to do list is about 2 pages long.

I need to work out to get rid of this stress bubble that is inside of me. *sigh* I swear I’m gonna get cancer or have an aneurysm.

Today for instance. I have an activities committee meeting. I need to print up the agenda, combine all the sign up sheets, print up the ideas for the Christmas party, and print up the activities for next year so we can decide which dates we want for 2007 so I can be ready for my ward correlation meeting on November 14. I have to make phyllo pastries and a chiffon cake for the meeting so people will have snacks to snack on during the meeting. I have to do the laundry. My washing machine broke and I finally got it fixed today. I estimate I have at least 30 loads of laundry to do. I have to load my dishwasher, drop and pick up kids from school 9am, 11:30am, 12pm, 2:30pm and 3:15pm. Make my bed, clean my room, get Josh to help me clean his room. I have to sweep and mop the floor, make something for dinner, oh, and I really should take a shower. I have to shovel the walk and try to get the rest of the ice off the sidewalk (heaven forbid if Ryan can help out and do manual labor around the house). I have to go buy Halloween candy for the pinata that we are doing for the Mexican night. I need to put away all the Halloween decorations and clean up the candy that is now scattered throughout the house. I have to finish making the sugar cookies I started on Monday, wipe down the walls, wash the windows, clean the bathroom downstairs…. sigh… I’m sure I could go on and on, cuz there is lots of various sorting organizing I need to do in regards to all the paper clutter that I have around the house. AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

*sigh* I need to go lift some weights or take up boxing or something. And today is not nearly as hectic as yesterday… no wonder I don’t have time to blog anymore. It also takes me forever and a day to get things done cuz in the mean time I am taking care of 5 kids and doing things for them or being interrupted by them. So that slows me down. In the evenings I’m so exhausted and worn out.