Sorting emotions.
So I just got my paycheque working for the past 2 weeks full time. Less hours than what Ryan puts in and my cheque was more than his.
I really don’t know how to handle this. I’m trying to sort through my emotions. I’ve got a mix of them flowing through me right now. Part of me is happy, proud, angry, frustrated, furious and resentful.
I just casually mentioned my cheque amount to him on the phone. I didn’t see his face so I could read him, but I could hear it in his voice. He was a little choked. He congratulated me and I just dropped it, quickly changed the subject and babbled on about something else.
I’m happy and proud, cuz I worked my ass off and I’ve got more than 1/2 the money I need for my bike or my gear paid for.
Now I’m also angry and frustrated cuz I’ve made more than the ball and chain.