The journey between here and there

I figure since mostly I complain, whine, moan and vent on here, I should probably put something that actually makes me happy…. Things I love….

So here we go…

Something that I find absolutely irresistable… makes me lose all train of thought, stuns me, silences me or turns me into a babbling stuttering idiot and makes my thoughts turn into pudding, is Aqua Di Gio.

Now I don’t know what drug they have mixed in here, but it has a serious, serious effect on my physical body as well as my mental state. It’s the most amazing men’s fragrance out there and my favorite. It just makes my mind swim and my body instantly perks up. It’s the best smelling, most delicious scent I’ve smelled on a man. It’s my drug. I can’t say no.

My next favorite cologne is one that drives me wild… however, I’ve found that it doesn’t have the same effect with all men. Obsession by Calvin Klein is equally as amazing as Aqua Di Gio on its effects, but it all depends on who wears it and the scent of the guy mixed in with the cologne. I had an ex-boyfriend that used to wear this and it just made me go absolutely nuts. When I bought it for Ryan and he put it on…. it wasn’t the same. I didn’t like it. Odd…. Love the commercial though.

There are times when I’ll be driving and I’ll be totally and absolutely lost in my own world. Just completely lost in my day dream and my own little world that when I finally arrive at my destination I’m always curious as to how I made it there.

I love that I have a very strong and vivid imagination. I can escape so easily. I’m enjoying reading the Twilight books because they are an easy read. I can read a book in a day or two and I just lose myself within them. Although there are parts where I just gag and roll my eyes at.

I really don’t believe that a guy would ever be so sweet and say all those amazing things that Edward spews out of his mouth. I just can’t imagine that at all. I think it is giving false hope to all the young female readers because they have now built up this image in their mind of what guys should say to them, but it will all come crashing down on them. They will feel all hurt and devastated when they realize this.

MAYBE… maybe there is the odd guy out there who says all that stuff like Edward, but those are few and far in between. Kinda like finding a needle in the haystack.

Wow… Yesterday was crazy. Nothing like waking up on the wrong side of the bed.

I awoke and felt like I wanted to rip someone’s head off, take their brains out and feed it to a rabid dog. I was in a foul mood.

Unfortunately, my mood didn’t dissipate. It just stayed until the evening.

At work I warned everyone of my mood and closed my door. At least on the phone I can throw my voice and be happy if I need to.

I sat and tried to figure out what was causing my foul disposition. I think what set me off was that I had told Ryan we needed to go on a date and I wanted to head out to see Righteous Kill. I had to go can flour at the church and I’d be done at 8:45 so he could meet me after. I called him at that time, but he went to bed instead. He was too tired to go out. I was annoyed. I haven’t seen him at all for the past month and I’m beginning to hate him again. *sigh* Instead I just went to Walmart and went Christmas shopping. Instead of calming me down, shopping just made me more mad. I hate Christmas. It just stresses me out. I went to bed furious. Hence I woke up wanting to kill someone. I figured it out, yet I couldn’t shake the mood. Not until I hit the pub.

In the evening I went to a pub to take pictures for their advertising campaign. As I was taking pics, some guy kept on ducking out of the way. Finally exasperated he got up and moved out of my way and told me he could not have his pic taken. He then went on to explain he was part of a special ops team and had just got back from Afghanistan. He was very intriguing and interesting. I talked to him for 15 min. He was really nice and I could have talked to him for longer, but I had to go to the New Kids on the Block concert. So with a bit of regret I ended the conversation.

I went to get Laura from the back kitchen and when I returned back out to the pub he disappeared. I found him in the parking lot and gave him a couple of passes to the theatre. I really wanted to talk to him more and find out about his job, but unfortunately time didn’t permit it.

Laura and I jumped into the van and went to Chinook. We stopped at Starbucks, but the line was too long so we went to Chapters and picked up ‘New Moon’, the next book in the Twilight Series. Picked up a strawberry slushy thing from Orange Julius then went to the concert.

I’ve been around, just crazy busy. I’m up at 5:30am and I go until 11pm when I fall exhausted in bed.

I’ve been dealing with all kinds of crazy things that I hope to be able to get around to write about it, but I prolly won’t cuz time flies in my world.

There was a crazy fog that just filled our town and all the roads on Monday. I thought it was beautiful. For the first time I felt the weather reflected my mind. I just feel like I’m walking in a hazy fog. Not really being able to see clearly where I’m going, where I’ve been or where I am currently. My mind is numb and I’m just coping with trying to do the millions of things I need to do.

I wish I could clone myself. I feel like I’m going at this life all by myself. I just want to escape. To recharge. To go far, far away.

I think I need a week off every month just so I can get bored and then I can have the energy to continue with the whirlwind that constantly surrounds me.

I wish someone would just take me away from it all.